Monthly Archives: May 2013
You tore it out
Tore it up
But even then
I picked it up.
Use to mean
As I sit here
The fullness of
We sat around the dinner table.
Plates already pushed back.
Empty except for the remnants of peas,
That had successfully evaded the forks,
That were laid defeated across the plates.
Different stories being told across the table.
Bursts of laughter for no reason at all.
Everyone content with where they are.
Almost too good to be true,
And it was.
Through the laughs and murmurs of talking
A phone rings
Nothing to be concerned about
Until they looked at the caller ID
Someone said “Its Ireland.”
Everyone mentally does the calculation.
Silence falls upon the table.
No one speaking the words that can’t be ignored
They answer the phone.
Short answers given
No one is breathing.
They put down the phone.
The rest of the night forgotten,
Oh how things can change.
Your only at my lips
and I’m already yours.
You make my heart race.
It’s been months.
But to no avail,
You have done it again.
You make me doubt myself.
Am I just weak?
When you come within five feet,
My mind just starts to fade.
Your presence is daunting.
Knowing the affect you have on me.
But I can only focus on your lips
Memories flooding of where they have been
Your eyes look through me.
As if they know exactly where my mind has been.
Now it becomes a dance,
A tango of flirtation.
Frustration comes with flirtation
Knowing there is a line I must not cross
Should not cross.
The jury is still deciding
What if’s are being questioned
Whispering in my ear as we dance.
What’s the harm?
Just one kiss.
Have you ever thought it wouldn’t all work out?
That it is all to good to be true.
You are just waiting until it all comes
Waiting for the failure to arrive.
To busy to realize the success that’s already been accomplished.
Is it our fault or society’s?
Are we taught to always be on guard?
To keep the idea of failure in the back of our minds?
Are we taught to strive for success and that failing is failure.
Where do we draw the line?
Should we be afraid?
Avoiding activities or goals because we are afraid of failing?
Have we become so ashamed to not succeed?
Shouldn’t we take some risk,
Get past that nagging voice of fear in our heads.
We are essentially
Another door is always open
But if you don’t jump at the opportunity,
Then it just becomes a door.
A risk can be that changing moment in your life,.
IF you fail, you failed.
Move on and get past it.
Live your life without fear because you have already faced your fear.
So, jump, leap, and run.
I thought time apart was what we needed.
But I can see now that’s what you wanted.
Trying to talk is like trying to hold water in the palm of your hand,
Always a losing battle.
Its all you and no me.
While that’s how it always seemed.
My head is beginning to compete,
With my heart’s denial,
We are two stubborn heads.
The lightening and thunder of a storm,
You grab my attention and I grumble,
Just waiting on the storm to pass.
At least for a brief moment
Wasn’t there a happier time?
When we were unstoppable.
You made my heart go a flutter.
So what went wrong?
Was it my rose colored glasses?
Wanting something so bad,
It was doomed from first glance.
It was us.
So take your time.
I have spent all mine.
You run away,
But you say your okay.
Your mother, father, friends,
We have lost
We try and convince each other,
That there was nothing we could do,
While putting on a brave face,
While not believing any of the words.
Surely there was something we could do.
Listen more. Ask more questions.
Anything at all,
Even predicting the future.
You lost yourself,
But it was our job,
to get you back to the real you.
To avoid this nightmare.
But this nightmare we must face.
We can’t change the past, all we can do is hope,
That when you find yourself,
You will come back to us.