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Purge

it takes time
to find the courage again
to sift through the evidence of your heart break
careful to not be cut from the sharp edges
the previous scars are only just fading
you hold them as if they are delicate flowers
determined to not let them cause you any more pain
you know how to protect yourself now
you have layers of security that no one can hack
you are a fortress with an army that has seen darkness
they don’t want to go back
so you banish the triggers
use the glass from your old heart to rebuild
and when it seems to be too much
you commence a purge of emotions into words
as if your soul is getting a spring cleaning
you know now that you will still be standing
after the coldest of times.

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I’m here for now….

I float above the skies,

where I am untouchable.

I am finally somewhere

you have to look up to me.

You can’t escape my tears.

The more I need,

the bigger that they become,

so that you feel like drowning.

The pain comes in low rumbles,

clouding your sight of all light.

until only my image can appear,

a constant reminder.

The worst is yet to come.

When you can do nothing

but look until your eyes hurt,

flowers will grow in spite of

the wallowing bird songs.

A sign that I am all gone

except for the mark that

I finally made on your heart.

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The Reveal

Before you can move on,
You have to admit what went wrong.
 
Do you know how long that took?
 
Before the guilt-ridden feelings,
Stubborn-ness and anger passed,
Allowing my mind to finally,
Believe what my heart was telling me.
 
I turned myself into someone you needed,
The rock that you could always lean on.
 I was being pushed into the ground,
Not being able to come up to breathe.

 

No longer a rock but a pebble,
Being tossed around by someone’s shoe.
 
All the sad and broken feelings,
The passive aggressive revealing,
Must seem dark,
Getting a glimpse into my heart.
 
But through the year of self imposed torture,
I knew my heart was still pure,
I still wanted to apologize,
For leaving you without your rock. 
 
I just –
Couldn’t take it any longer.

~HonestLynne

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A Heart Cleanse

You won’t think this is about you,
Because why would you?
There is nothing in mind,
That would say you were mine.
Who knew a heart could ache,
Even after it breaks.
The past is the past,
But the feelings still last.
So I will try to be civil,
Tell my head to give a little.
For I still think about you,
For a moment or two.
I mean this in the nicest way,
I hope, my old friend,  your life will be as amazing as you say.

~HonestLynne

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Jigsaw Puzzle

Image
You tore it out
Tore it up
But even then
I picked it up.
Misled
Blind
Excuses
L-O-V-E
Those letters
Use to mean
Something
I yearn
To see
Or believe
As I sit here
With my
Jigsaw puzzle
The fullness of
My heart

~HonestLynne

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Doomed

I thought time apart was what we needed.
But I can see now that’s what you wanted.
Trying to talk is like trying to hold water in the palm of your hand,
Always a losing battle.
 
Its all you and no me.
While that’s how it always seemed.
My head is beginning to compete,
With my heart’s denial,
 
We are two stubborn heads.
The lightening and thunder of a storm,
You grab my attention and I grumble,
Just waiting on the storm to pass.
 
At least for a brief moment
Wasn’t there a happier time?
When we were unstoppable.
You made my heart go a flutter.
 
So what went wrong?
Was it my rose colored glasses?
Wanting something so bad,
It was doomed from first glance.
 
No.
It was us.
So take your time. 
I have spent all mine. 
 
~HonestLynne

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