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A Lost Thought

My life is a constant,

but I choose the variables.

The reactions of what life

throws in my direction,

are based on my choices

of what I decide to give

back to a world that

doesn’t know the meaning

of a slow and steady race,

but throws curve after curve,

until I lay breathing

in a corner of truth,

determining not whether

I will stand again but

rather which foot will go first,

until I stand tall enough to see

over a city of my hurdles,

that I am too strong,

to have a moment without

meaning. With no meaning,

we give up the control we

gain when we know the

weight of what we are given,

but have the knowledge to hold it

preciously in our hands, like a

feather that just might blow away.

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Self Preservation 

You desend in your confidence

A hot mess in an open valley,

The pivotal pixel in any image,

The negative to my dark room.
 

You demand to command

With your hands on my hips

Keeping me in your space

So that only eyes are in focus.
 

I saw a boy I once knew

But now a jaded soul

Has replaced a smile

That was once so comforting.
 

So much has been spent

With tiny pieces of heart

Every time that boy asked

I gave away so effortlessly.
 

Senses renewed

With the feel of his lips

But the heart crumbles

With memory of its losses.
 

I’ve given what I can give

Without interrupting its beats

Just learning new melodies

To the pieces that still fit.
 

This time a man claims

For my heart in my palms

But my fingers grow around it

Saving me from harm.
 

His heart has grown

With pieces of me,

But I am only a fraction

Of who I once could be.

(I would love some feedback!)

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Gladiator

I don’t have any fight

left in me.

I find myself saying Yes,

my soul saying No.

 

I keep forcing the battle

into a MMA cage,

My heart still comes bruised,

rusty and wasted.

 

The only sign outside

are the half moon

dents implanted

in the palm of my hand.

 

I’m so tired,

Wanting to stay

in my bed tired,

my face in a pillow.

 

I need a release.

Something more than

shattering a wall

of disappointment.

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Sunflower of Redemption 

You are a ray of sunshine

That’s what they used to say,

Now, I’m tainted.

 

What used to be a golden shine,

Now is an orange tainted musk,

That flickers like an old flame.

 

I heard this line in a song once,

“The moon is a lie without the sun.”

Did I only shine because of society’s light?

 

Do I only project what I receive?

When did I become that person?

So shallow and undeserving.

 

I’m avoiding mirrors,

Friends and family,

Ashamed.

 

I need my light,

My shining light as bright as child’s smile.

I can find my way back.

 

I want to feel like

A sunflower in the summer,

With no doubt of who to worship.

 

My unwavering focus

On a path,

To redemption.

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My flower 

After all this time
My chest tightens with joy
As I go breathless.

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Naive

I write

so that you and I

can come alive.

 

In these 8 x 11 borders

we can be free

to know we can breathe.

 

Eyes can peer

fingers may hold us

but we don’t fuss

 

We are alive

taking long walks

across each lined block.

 

Greeting our fellow

vowels and consonants

that make our love sonnet.

 

Our only fault

to think we are immortal

when we are written in pencil.

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I am a beginning

I am no longer new and shiny,

The gloss has worn off from wear and tear,

I sink to the bottom of the deck,

To sit among the others who are not worthy.

 

Betrayal, Jealousy, Anger

A few emotions that are cancer to the heart,

A dark cloud that encompasses your soul,

Leading you to feel discarded in a hole.

 

It’s hard to shake a feeling so strong,

A loss of one’s worth is destructive,

Although, it can take a single good thought,

A prick of a needle to deflate the balloon.

 

It takes some remembering,

A jolt of electricity to kick start the mind,

To rescue the heart that is badly beaten,

Pull it up from beyond and nurse it slowly.

 

The end is as important as the beginning,

A person’s life sets off in directions by catalysts,

Beginnings of journeys can change a person’s life,

Webs interconnect from heart to heart.

 

I am a catalyst.

The first domino to fall,

I started a person’s major life journey,

My part is just now over.

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Blinded

Remember the sunset.

This line walks through my head.

A prayer?

A plea?

 

Damn, you make things so hard.

Hard to move,

Hard to see,

Everything just hard.

 

I’ve lost feeling,

intermittent joy,

my poetry is lifeless,

no great written epiphanies.

 

I sit

in a great dark room,

indian style,

hands in my lap.

 

Visitors don’t come and go,

food does not slide under the door,

just me and the silence,

the sunset painted on the walls.

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Deep Down

You

have

my heart.

 

I

just need

your name.

 

Whisper

it in

my ear,

 

so

my heart

can sing.

 

Write

it in

my palm,

 

So

you touch

my soul.

 

You

have

a home,

 

in

my

imagination,

 

give

me

a key,

 

to

allow

my eyes,

 

the

ability

to decieve,

 

my

mind

that won’t,

 

believe

you

would be,

 

here

for

me.

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A New Kind of Drug

Epiphanies are rare,

but when they come

they are a rush

of fresh fall air.

 

Internally grateful,

it flows through my body,

relieving the knots

of worry and doubt.

 

A drug that I need daily,

a single thought,

the right thought,

the key to functionality.

 

How do I keep them flowing?

Keep my blood rushing?

How do I keep from looking down?

So, I can ride this for eternity.

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